Exam stress

Is it only me, or does everyone think their gonna screw up their trials? :( :(

Accounting paper on thurs. Hardly started revising. Dunno where to start. Sigh. Gonna be a bad week for me. :( :(

Thank God its friday!

Was revising stats when i had the urge to come online! hehe. Studying's making me sick! :(

Not to mention, trials in less than 5 day! First paper on thurs, accounting 4!! Die again! Sigh.. i think i'm so gonna screw up my trials. Havent started revising AT ALL for accounting. Keep delaying as usual la. Haih. Nevermind, i always tell myself, 2 more months.. ONLY 2 more months. 2 more months of agony.. many more months of joy, i hope! :D

Well, been staying back in the library for the past 2 weeks till late. Sad i know. Hehe. What to do, sacrifices have to be made. ;)

However yesterday i didn't feel like it. So ken and i decided to go to One u to watch.. Rataouille!

The movie's pretty cute. Well, in reality, rats are disgusting and a pure nuisance! but in this movie, the rat is soo cute! haha. Imagine rats cooking and talking. haha. Everyone was saying how good it was, but i thought it was just any ordinary cartoon with really good graphics. Hmm, prob because i had really high hopes for the movie since everyone was praising it. haha. Well, moral of the story, don't have high expectations for movies ppl say are good. ;)

Had some time to waste after the movie so we went to starbucks to have a drink..and unsuprisingly, i got conned into playing cho tai ti. hahaha. but i'm happy cos i won most of it! LOL. Was telling ken how i shouldnt have left my notes in the car so instead we could actually study since we didn't do anything the whole day! hahaha.. and how he thought i was insane. oh well, i consolled myself and said our brains need rest too sometimes right? ;)

Headed to a friend's place right after for cell group. On the way home, a crazy friend of mine decided that she wanted to go to bukit tunku to visit her friend, at like 11.30 pm! i had no choice but to follow her all the way there cos she was afraid of the dark roads. haha. her friend has a baby.. at only 20!! and the baby's already turning two. that means she got pregnant at 17. Gee. What a young mum. I really salute her cos she's willing to raise up a child at such a young age, when your life's barely started! Some people would just abort it, thinking it's just a burden to them. I guess that's where u need to lay out ur principles.

Came home, showered and slept straight after. Was soo exhausted i tell u. But oh well, fun day overall. Good movie, good company, good food. what more can i ask for? ;)

Right now, its back to studying for the next 2 months! I can do it, yes i can! :)

Ooh lala

Don't have the urge to blog much these days. I think its the exam stress. haha. By the time i get back from college, i'll be dead tired.. all i wanna do is sleep! haha.

Hmm i think the urge to blog will come again once exams are over! haha. post exam remedy! LOL :)

Oh well.. past few days have been erm steady. Weekend was okay. Oh..I went to FRIM last sunday morning with about 10 of us. Pretty fun. Too bad we didn't manage to find a nice waterfall spot to picnic.. its so sad i tell you. we were hiking like for ages to find the perfect spot, but we didn't manage to. Sigh. In the end we had to settle for this small spot which was only okay. My eagernees to jump into the cold water of nature was short lived! :(
hahaha. but oh well, it was still fun overall. Was dead tired right after. Came home, slept like the whole evening.. woke up only at 10pm! u never knew how guily i felt. :P

Will post up picture when i've transferred them to my comp. which i'm so lazy to do. heh.

Oh well, back to work for me. Gonna print paper 7 math! tata! ;)

My country.

The Negarakuku rap video is bombarding the headlines these past few days. Just watched it.. and i think that Wee guy has really good composing skills. Although i vaguely understood what he was saying.. i think what he says pretty makes sense. Don't wanna comment much here just in case anything happens. hahaha. But i do think the government should reflect upon this and perhaps think things over.. like mayb what he thinks is true.. and not just totally ignore and say that he is young and naive. Perhaps they should not just brush this issue aside. If many people think that way, perhaps the government should do something about it. Obviously, something is wrong.

A really good friend of mine took some time to write me a really nice poem. Hahaha. Tell me how true it is! LOL ;)

CLARISSA

There was a sense of soothing silence,
A relaxing laid-back ambience,
It was slow-paced – with a glaring lack of imminence,
That was short-lived, however, when suddenly a door behind opens.

**
There appeared before us a girl who was seemingly innocent,
Dressed in clothing of such opulence,
She looked considerably brilliant,
What with her high grades being at a remarkable constant.

**
And then she SPOKE;
The horror of witnessing her attempt a joke,
Was no laughing matter as it made us choke,
It made us one to kill her with one swift stroke.

**
But all is not as it seemed,
As a situation without her is hard to be imagined,
She makes it to difficult for our moods to be dimmed,
For it’s funny as she always beamed.

**
The fourth paragraph wasn’t just an insignificant stub,
As it was primarily used for sucking up,
As I fear for my live when she reads this while sipping tea from a cup.
So when asked if she’s a sweet little thing my answer is a definite “Yup!”.

**
We’ll never forget her unmistakable yell of “Sucker!”,
Where we are the innocent victims of this ruthless mocker,
I bet you’re waiting for me to use the word f*cker,
What do you think I am – some kind of pariah hawker?

**
We love you Cla – we really do,
Even though you assaulted us with insults we won’t sue,
We’re happy to include you as part of our family too,
Just don’t sing anymore – OhMyGod Eww!

When the going gets tough!

Life has been so dull lately. Sigh. Everything just revolves around work, work and MORE work! Totally sucks.

Its like.. even when you're out.. u wanna chill.. but you'll still be reminded that there's exams comin up.. and you need to study!! Well for me at least la. Worst part is, practically ALL your friends are on holidays, which makes u the odd one. Cos when they go out, you'll have to say.. " but i've got classes". So sad i tell you!

My life now revolves around math, math and more math. A2 math is killing me i tell you! it is nothing compared to AS math! Not to mention i have accounting ( totally killer.. always been) and econs to do as well. I need good time management skills!

For now, its less going out, less foosball, less tv, less internet, less sleep and more study, more work and more nerding! ( i can do away with all except for the less sleep part. hehe.. everybody needs their beauty sleep ;)

AM SO SO SO SO looking forward to the day our exams are over man! I'm so gonna party like crazy! hahaha.

For now, to motivate myself..

When the going gets tough, always remember.. faith doesn't get your around trouble, it gets your through it!

Super power weih!

hahaha. its raining now. BEST time to sleep. But i won't. Cos i need to study. Self control baby!! :)

Tata!

Birthday!

I realise my last few posts has been so emo. hehe.

I'm okay now, I think ;)

On a brighter note, Its my dad's birthday today!

Soo...

HAPPY 56th BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

Thanks for everything you've done for us. Providing us with everything, succumbing to our every whimp and fancy. You're the best! Hope you live a long long healthy healthy life. You're the best!! :D


( lol its as if my dad's gonna read this. haha. Oh well, its the thought that counts isn't it? ;)

Faith

I've come to a realisation that.. I shouldn't depend on my own abilites but learn to trust in Him.

I've been pretty off track lately, thinking i could do everything on my own, with what i have, with my OWN abilities. Not needing anything else. I was wrong. I admit i've been drifting away. I'm sorry.

This the lesson i've learnt. And i'm gonna learn from it. My sister once told me, take any challenge as a lesson, and learn from mistakes. Which is true. There's no point hoping and saying.. " IF only this and that.." cos it will never happen. Its a fact and you just have to face it.

I always believe that, if you do your part, He will do the rest! We just need to have a little more faith, a little more trust and of course, a little more effort! So from today onwards, I'm gonna work hard, perservere and not give up easily. I hope to live by that till the end! :)

:(

We got our results today. I didn't get what i expected to get. And i won't lie, obviously i'm damn sad. I'm not gonna console myself and say that its okay cos its not. I mean.. we are supposed to score in AS isn't it? And look at the great results i got. I've dissapointed my parents.. and most of all myself. And now i have to deal with the fact whether i want to retake subjects or not.

Sometimes i wonder whether this world is fair. I wonder whether God is really there, there. Whether He sees the effort some people put in and some people don't. I know it is wrong to think this way, but i do wonder sometimes. Some people getting good grades but they don't study.. Whether He is here when i need Him the most. Am i not smart enough? Did i not put in effort? Perhaps, it just wasn't enough.

I know there's no point crying over spilt milk, but i can't help but wonder.

I've learnt that no matter what happens, how bad it seems today, life goes on and there's no turning back. And it will be better tomorrow.

I hope.

D-Day

AS Results out tomorrow!!

All of us are either gonna cry tears of joy.. or tears of regret.

I still remember the last paper for AS. On how we found how tricky the econs paper was. Sigh. And now, results are out.. in less than 24 hours!

I hope it will be good news for me.. and for everyone else! :)

I shall enlighten you with what i got, if i do good. So pray for me. Heh.

I'm going swimming! Tata!

Journey of a thousand miles

Got an email from an old friend. At the end, its says..

1. Treasure what you have now, than to only regret once it's gone.

2. Give what you can now, than to only regret to have not given.

I don't know, but it just hit me instantly. Its true that we don't have a long time on this earth to live, so why don't we just live life to the fullest and not worry about petty little things that doesn't make much impacts in our lives. Like.. worrying whether we look bad this morning..is my hair out of place? is my make up smudged? do i smell bad? i wonder if he'll notice me if i wear this? or perhaps even making something big out of a small things. Don't get me wrong, i'm not saying that we should live and smell like a total pig. But you know, just take some time out and start focusing on more important issues.

The first one in particular really hit me. I started thinking to myself whether i've let anyone down. Perhaps i should start treating people around me better, treasuring them. Not that i'm treating them badly now.. but just to, you know, make them feel that God created them for a purpose on this earth and not everyone's out to get them. Its not a dog eat world thing. That they are in fact, created not by accident, but by purpose. Even small things matter. Like holding the door for a stranger, or helping a friend in need to the utmost capability. You know, these kinda things DO actually matter, even if you don't realise it.

I admit i've experienced certain regrets in life that i wish i could turn back time and hope to replay it all over again, differently.

I guess life ain't that easy.

Perhaps i should start now, with whatever i have and make the most out of it.. so when i look back in 20 years time, I'll be contented and will be able to say i've achieved much and definately have no regrets whatsoever.

I hope you will too.

LOL

Got this of a friend's blog. It's hilarious i tell you. Hahaha laughed the crap out of me.

It goes like this..

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.

A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Moral of the story:

(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy

(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend

(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

LOL. Hope that made ur day! :)

Bleh

I have very, and i mean VERY short attention span these past few days. Sigh. Its like.. i'm concentrating on something, then the next thing i know.. i'm doing something else. It feels so weird. Its like, while i'm doing my work, i'll be concentrating for like 15 minutes, or less.. then the next thing.. i'll be doing something different.. like reading my book.. or er, coming online. Like before this , i was doin math, then now i'm online. Haiyo!! How la how! Cannot like that lar.. exam coming! God help me! :(

Sigh..

On a brighter note, I'm going for a party tonight @ Curve. Great time to de-stress myself.. i seriously need to get out of the house if not i'm going to rot away and DIE. Haha.

* let's party, like its your birthday*

Can't wait. Wheeee!! :D :D

Will tell you guys about it in the next post! Tata!

Happy Burst-day!

To my dearest friend, Vila

It's been 7 years since we made friends at high school. I still remember the first day u stepped into class with your mum. hahaha. You registered late, so you were like kinda lost. We came up to you, asked you for your name and damn, was that a bad choice! lol. Those days where we used to call each other names, you lizard.. tease pn.cheang, skip prefect duties, sang in choirs.. ( i still remember the * you are sixteen going on seventeen* performance where u tried to act all "different" with your super high pitched voice! LOL ). How i miss those times!

Now that you're far far away in Canada doing uni, it feels as though we're a thousand miles away. ( we are in fact) But that won't stop us from staying good friends right? ;) Hopefully, in the future when we grow up we'll still stay as friends, watch each other get married, have kids.. and perhaps even grow old together! haha.

I hope this year would be another great great year for you as you mature into a beautiful young woman you already are.

Happy 18th Birthday, girl!

Lotsa love,

Clarissa

Only time.

Its the month of August already. Didn't really hit me till today! we're already three quarter through the year 2007. How time flies, dontcha think? Looking back, i wonder whether these past 8 months had been a productive one. Hopefully so. Another 4 more months and we're done with college!! I still remember the first day! Geez. It freaks me out sometimes to see how fast we're growing up! I'll definately miss Taylor's in one way or another ( although i hate them for being money suckers) .. especially the friend's i've made and the bonds that i've developed. :) I guess everyone has to move on in life, sooner or later.


Trials in 3 freakin weeks! Crap la.. i hardly even started studying.. And there's so much to cover. SO MUCH. I need to STOP procrastinating. If not i'm seriously gonna be dead meat. AS results next thurs! I've been thinking.. on that day, its either like a do or die situation. You're either gonna be happy or sad. I'm praying that day would turn out to be a happy one for me! .. and for YOU of course! :)


Wasted my whole afternoon in Starbucks playing cho tai ti with ken and sharon. How ironic. Talking about wanting to start studying and all, but i'm still bumming. SIGH. what to do. Good news is, there's no college tmr! hahaha so i have a long weekend all to myself. LOL. i wanna go catch a movie.. simpsons..or i don't mind that new movie by mandy moore.."because you said so" .. looks good. Anyone interested? :)


oh well, i'm gonna go finish reading my book.. its getting better by the minute. hehe. Till then.


Toodles! :)

Taylor's Charity Carnival 2007

Atmosphere at college yesterday was somewhat different than usual days. We had a "charity" carnival at college yesterday, yes obviously to raise donations for charity. God knows what charity organisation is the donations gonna go to. Probably the Taylor's Charity Fund. Haha. You money suckers! :P

But those people who sell stuff had good intentions to raise money for charity, even though deep down the they know that it might not, i guess they should be given credit. :)

Well, it was pretty okay i guess. I think Sharon had a great time. Look at how happy she is! ;)

So they had stuff like, henna art, tatoo, nail painting, food food and more food, games etc etc. You know, the stuff carnivals usually have. They even managed to set up House of Horror... no offence to whoever did it, but it seriously sucked. I mean, hello.. its so dark, u can barely see a thing. Instead of being afraid of those spooky stuff, u're more worried that you're gonna trip and fall! I just had to hold on to Ken the whole time.. and sharon had to hold on to me. Which totally defeats the purpose of going in. And those ghost didn't look scary at all. And they "scared" people at the wrong time. Pull your leg when ur walking etc. Haiyo. so reminds me of kindergarten! hahaha :P Wasted 3 bucks for nothing.. should have gone for the reptile show, it'll prolly be more interesting.

Sharon being happy getting her fake tatoo done.

Henna painting.

Oh.. and i met my long lost friend. Somehow, we study in the same college but we hardly bump into each other. Those were the days at high school. Miss you Vic! *hug*

Oh and i think not everyone had fun at the carnival. At least i think Ken didn't. hahaha. This shows how bored he was. I mean, reading the economist?? seriously. But i think he was bored following sharon and I around. I mean, i would be bored to wits if i were to follow guys around doing guy stuff :)

There was this one game.. where u could throw a pie at someone's face. Too bad Ms Pun wasn't the one being thrown at. I bet all her accounting students would line up, or willing to pay a bomb to get that pie up her face! hahaha. It would help if the pie was more pie-ish. it was so starchy, even when u throw it at someone's face, it doesn't stick but just falls off ur face like rubber. Haiyo! Oh yea, and they said u could throw at a friend of your choice, and that friend of yours would get a free pie. So i suggested i threw the pie at Ken. But he was so un-sporting he didn't want too. After soo much persuasion and benefits they tempted him with. Wasting our breath only. hahaa if he was willing to, that would have been darn funny! LOL

So yeah, thats basically it. It was good cos we didn't really have classes except for econs and everyone went home happy! so yeah. No homework too.. which makes it all the better.

hahaha. :)

Oh well, so its no more fun, and back to some serious studying for the next few weeks till trials. Sigh.

I need sleep now ! tata!